I had my 28 week checkup today – everything is still looking great! I’m starting to have checkups every two weeks now, which makes me realize I’m reaching the end of my pregnancy already! It’s going by so fast, I can’t imagine what these next 11 weeks are going to be like. It feels like only a couple of weeks ago I told Preston that I was pregnant again…

He was at school and I was supposed to be leaving to pick him up. I couldn’t remember when my period was supposed to be due… it seemed like it should be coming any day. We had been trying to get pregnant several months prior but it never happened, so we decided to quit trying since I wanted to remain in school full time anyway, it probably wouldn’t be the best timing. It’s funny how things work out when you stop trying to be the one in control of everything. I took a pregnancy test on a whim, because they’re fun (yes, I’m weird) and to my shock it was actually positive. I wasn’t even going to hang around long enough to see the test result but it came up so fast it was pretty hard to not see it! Preston was definitely as surprised as I was, but we were both very excited and happy about the news. Since it was such a surprise, I probably should have told him a little easier… I sent him a text saying “I’m pregnant”. LOL Poor guy.

It’s been interesting so far how different things are with a subsequent pregnancy. Not only because of the fact that it’s not twins this time, but because I actually know what I’m doing and what to expect this time. It does take some of the excitement away because nothing seems all that “new”, it’s more like “been there, done that”. I think the biggest difference this time around is that I can feel this baby move so much more than I ever felt the girls. Way more. It’s not surprising since the girls were so squished. I absolutely love laying in bed at night and in the mornings with Preston while we feel and watch our baby boy move all around. His kicks are so strong! We joke that he’s in there training to be a cage fighter. Just the other day I felt his hiccups for the first time.

We are both so anxious to have him here already, but we’re also not ready yet. I’ve been trying to imagine what it will be like having him here with us… and it’s hard to picture. I’m so used to it being me and Preston, and the girls (who I still usually refer to as “the babies” even though they are so not babies anymore ). I’m finding myself thinking about how much I absolutely love my girls, so much so that I can’t even explain it, and I often wonder how I’m going to love another child as much as I love them. I know I will, but it’s so weird to think about, how can you love so much? I guess that’s just how we are created. Then I go on to thinking about how completely amazing it is that we made these precious little girls and it’s so fascinating to watch them grow and develop into their own little personalities. I can’t wait to see what our little boy is like. Preston has always wanted a boy so badly, it’s unexplainable how it feels to have taken part in giving him something like this that he’s always wanted. I can’t wait to see how he is with his son. He’s the most amazing father to the girls, and I know that sounds cliche but it’s true, he is. I couldn’t have asked for a better Daddy or Hubby.

In addition to all the lovey-dovey feelings, I do have my freak out moments where I think what the heck did I get myself into?!!? TWO three year olds, a new born, a house, a husband, AND college full time? Forget about me time, I won’t even know what that is. I must be freaking insane. But, I know we’ll make it just fine, more than fine. Thank God for technology allowing me to take classes online. School would be out the window this semester if that weren’t an option. I’m planning on using some of my left over financial aid to purchase a lap top so I don’t have to be confined to my desk all the time. I really think that will help maintain my sanity. Or not. We’ll find out won’t we?!

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